Yesterday I reached the highest point on my Camino journey, la cruz de ferra,or the iron cross.
Legend says it has been placed there in the 12 century. The original iron cross is in the Gaudi museum in Astorga, which I visited. There are many stories surrounding the reason it has been placed there, but for pilgrims it is an important milestone other than it being the highest point.
People leave what they need to leave there. As for me, I forgot all of the things I deemed precious and spiritual and worthy of leaving there at home. Ok, no problem. I believe stones, or any earthly material holds very special powers. On my way from Rabanal to the cross I came across MY special stone. I’m not sure why no one saw it, as it was in plain sight right along the Camino. I’m thinking it was for me and my eyes only.
It was a beautiful heart shaped stone. I have found lots of heart shaped stones over the years and this one was just as beautiful and had great energy. On my ascend to the cross I began to pray on it, added my words, my wishes, my affirmations, my gratefulness, my burdens, and my own energy to my stone. Yet, as I was nearing the cross, I felt this urge to keep it. The stone was mine now, it held even more special energy than it did when I found it. This stone was supposed to release the burdens, to manifest, to let go and trust, yet I wanted to hold on to it. I even started looking for a replacement stone. Was I not ready to let go of whatever needed to be released, and am I not clear yet on why I embarked on this journey in the first place? I walked with that for a while, slowly relinquishing my desire to keep my stone and slowly understanding that this was part of my journey and my reason for being here.
I placed my stone right along the thousands of other stones that created a mountain around the base of the pole, and as I walked down that little mountain I physically felt lighter as if whatever I left behind was weighing me down.