Embracing the darker side of this adventure

Today marks my 15th day on the Camino, and for the past 2 days I had a not so fun and adventurous time. I was actually questioning my reasons for deciding to walk the whole Camino versus just a part of it. My left foot started hurting again, and I was trying hard to focus on something positive. My physical limitations didn’t exactly help with that. It’s easy to slip into a dark place and wonder if I will be able to continue or will this get worse, and would that mean I need to abort my mission. Today I can honestly say I would rather not move on, not only because of my foot, but I’m longing to stay in one place for a period of time. Moving from hostel to hostel sleeping in a different bed is starting to wear on me. Thank god I have Rumpl, my space age blanket friend to keep me warm. It’s seriously like my little security blanket that hangs out with me like a good friend.

So I sit here doing therapy on my foot. The pain is in such a weird place, on the medial side of my mid foot. I’m just glad I took my therapy balls, massage therapist, Reiki practitioner and a few homeopathic remedies with me. It gets better after I work on it, so let’s hope it’s just from overuse and will eventually get used to the long distance walks.

I see the impact long distance walking has on people every day, as young and old have to cut their journey short because of injury and, man have I seen some nasty blisters along the way. One younger guy had one giant blister going across his entire foot. Physical injury or exhaustion is one thing, but there is also the mental part of feeling overwhelmed or emotionally drained. You suddenly have so much time on your hands with nothing to do but walk and turn inward. Stuff comes up, and as I always say, it’s all perception. In my case I feel the pain, I questioned my motives, I wallowed in misery and self-pity for a time and then finally realized once again I always have choices.

I was looking for a fitting quote and found this:

It sure does help to write things down. I’m writing a lot in my journal, and I am so grateful that I get to share some of my personal experiences and adventures with you all. Whatever I’m doing and learning here will help me not only better understand and learn about myself, my triumphs, limitations, my ability to problem solve, but it will help me help my clients find their own path as well, in a compassionate, loving, and kind way

No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again

Buddha❤️

Author: Content may shift

I will have to revisit this and add content here soon. Stay tuned🙂

8 thoughts on “Embracing the darker side of this adventure”

  1. Claudia! Total bummer about your foot, but you are the strongest mentally and emotional person I have ever met, this too shall pass and I know you will make an amazing journey along the way! Even if it’s different then what you planned. Asking the universe to send you some quick healing. ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. Namaste sweet lady. Your journey is somewhat reflective of many yoga trainings. Always that edge of discomfort and then pain. It is good to restore and rest, it allows integration of all the experiences up to the pain point. I love your courage and dedication. One step. Another. Rest.
    Light and Love.

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    1. Sandra, thank you for your wise words. That is what I feel. It’s incredible how many emotions you can feel when there are no other distraction. Foot pain on the emotional scale is also a sign of depression. Given the fact that I am walking long distance though, might be more of a factor here. We’ll see. Feeling much better today💜

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  3. I’m sorry to hear about your foot… Maybe take another couple of days, pause a moment, think about this amazing journey and what you’ve already accomplished both physically and mentally.
    Thank you for sharing your journey with us! Your courage, excitement, enlightenment, and vulnerability make me proud to call you my friend, my sister!
    Much love… ❤️❤️

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    1. Awh, thank you Norma❣️this is indeed unchartered territory for me. As you know I’m usually “fine”. 😊 did 10 miles today, and taking the train into León. I’ll be staying there soaking up some art and culture

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