Today marks my 15th day on the Camino, and for the past 2 days I had a not so fun and adventurous time. I was actually questioning my reasons for deciding to walk the whole Camino versus just a part of it. My left foot started hurting again, and I was trying hard to focus on something positive. My physical limitations didn’t exactly help with that. It’s easy to slip into a dark place and wonder if I will be able to continue or will this get worse, and would that mean I need to abort my mission. Today I can honestly say I would rather not move on, not only because of my foot, but I’m longing to stay in one place for a period of time. Moving from hostel to hostel sleeping in a different bed is starting to wear on me. Thank god I have Rumpl, my space age blanket friend to keep me warm. It’s seriously like my little security blanket that hangs out with me like a good friend.
So I sit here doing therapy on my foot. The pain is in such a weird place, on the medial side of my mid foot. I’m just glad I took my therapy balls, massage therapist, Reiki practitioner and a few homeopathic remedies with me. It gets better after I work on it, so let’s hope it’s just from overuse and will eventually get used to the long distance walks.
I see the impact long distance walking has on people every day, as young and old have to cut their journey short because of injury and, man have I seen some nasty blisters along the way. One younger guy had one giant blister going across his entire foot. Physical injury or exhaustion is one thing, but there is also the mental part of feeling overwhelmed or emotionally drained. You suddenly have so much time on your hands with nothing to do but walk and turn inward. Stuff comes up, and as I always say, it’s all perception. In my case I feel the pain, I questioned my motives, I wallowed in misery and self-pity for a time and then finally realized once again I always have choices.
I was looking for a fitting quote and found this:
It sure does help to write things down. I’m writing a lot in my journal, and I am so grateful that I get to share some of my personal experiences and adventures with you all. Whatever I’m doing and learning here will help me not only better understand and learn about myself, my triumphs, limitations, my ability to problem solve, but it will help me help my clients find their own path as well, in a compassionate, loving, and kind way
No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again